perspective

Alright, what's going on here. I'm financially stable, mostly healthy. I have a dream job and an awesome girlfriend, fantastic family. I have so much to be thankful for but it still feels like I'm rotting inside. It has to be my parched social life. I feel good when I'm at kung fu, interacting with the other students and on those rare occasions where I hang out with the teachers. But when was the last time somebody besides my girlfriend called me to hang out? I can't even remember.

Perhaps my problem is that I never call other people to hang out. I shouldn't expect them to always have to initiate the contact. I guess I haven't really met anyone down here who I would feel comfortable calling. There are people I'd like to hang out with but it would seem too out-of-the-blue just calling them up like that. Though maybe that's not a bad thing. Who doesn't love a surprise social call...or is that just me because I'm so socially deprived? Hoo boy. How did I get through two decades of life without figuring this stuff out. Maybe girlfriend can teach me. It's a learned skill, right? My kung fu coach told me I was a fast learner...maybe there's hope yet!

I'm going to really have to try to make a big social push in Houston. I will be a complete and utter drain on girlfriend if I can't put my life together when we get there. I don't want to be some sort of bum boyfriend who can't fend for himself in a new place. Her family seems to have this impression of me at the moment...honestly, so do I. I wouldn't want to date me right now. Things need to change.